If I can be serious for a minute
Well it seems like we've done this before and this time unfortunately for me its much more serious than it was last time.. A doctor looked me in the face and said I may never be able to wrestle again. I was told that the other day, but of course its something I don't believe, but the fact is its something I have to deal with. Time has taken its toll on my body and...
The one thing about me is that I can't do anything halfway and I come here and I see the people having a deep interest in the 11ers/12ers match and one things for sure, it's going to be entertaining and that is what I want for you guys in spite of what you may think of me, I've always wanted you to be entertained, whether I'm on the good side or the bad side.
But what was always important to me was the performance, each time you guys log in, you didn't regret it because you knew that if you could come and cheer me or boo me, whatever as long as you had a good time. Over the last couple of daysthere has been a lot of talk of bad attitudes about this feud, and one thing that's not going to revolve around this feud now is me.
I dont know where Im at right now, I need to have everything checked, I might be beyond reconstructive knee surgery, but if I cant come back to the level Ive performed before, then i cant perform. I cant just go half ass,I have to romp and stomp, get tossed around, toss people around and have fun.
I took on the schedule I did because I felt that I had to, I wanted to enjoy being a Wrestling Forum member, I wanted to ride limousines, do TV shows, sign autographs, and I got to do all that, and if I have nothing else, I have that to take with me.
At a time when toughness is a big deal in the WF, all I've got is a lot of sorrow, a lot of tears, and a lot of emotion. I don't have toughness for anybody so I guess....here you go, here's my spot and I'm gonna go back home and see whats left for me, whether it be in this forum or out of this forum.
Over the last few days, I've lost a lot of things and one of the things I've lost is MY SMILE
, and I know it doesn't mean a lot to everyone else, but it means a lot to me and I have to go and fix myself and take care of myself and find my smile because somewhere along the lines I lost it and I don't care if its unpopular and people want to make fun of me because I'm an emotional guy.
But this is all I've ever wanted and over the last year I've got to do it and whether you like me or you don't, I just want to say that last year has been the most wonderful year of my life, and if I never do it again, its gonna be okay. I got one year of my life to do it and I have you (scrilla) to thank and I'm gonna go home now.
(walks away, wiping tears