Hello, everyone! I would like to share my fun little story with you
I once knew this girl named "Abigail" wayyy back in Elementary. I always had a crush on her. The problem is that I have always been shy during my youth. In high school, she had two different relationships. The first one was a smart good-looking fellow that made me very envious. Just seeing them in the hallway making out pisses me off; as if they intend to make me see them
The second one though was a former-badboy type of guy. The latter is still her boyfriend up to now. Okay now, HERE'S THE FUCKING DEAL...
I HAD YEARS OF OPPORTUNITY TO TALK TO HER AND START A FUCKIN RELATIONSHIP BUT NOOOO, I WAS TOO SHY AND AWKWARD. WHY?! CUZ I WAS NOT RAISED STRONG ENOUGH AS A MALE!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?! HUH. FROM THEN ON, I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HER! "FIRST LOVE NEVER DIES"? HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH
Okay, okay, let me take a goddamn chill pill
Now I'm in college. Yeepee
I'm super-confident for the first year. But a couple of terms go by and start to become more socially awkward and depressed again
It's most due to stress and and the past holding it back. Then came the 2nd term of 2012, it's the time when my colleagues let me down. I know, that's my OWN FUCKING PROBLEM TOO!!!!
DURING THE XMAS BREAK, MY MIND HAS BEEN RUNNING CRAZY!!! THE PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE IS JUST TOO MUCH TO BEAR. IT'S LIKE THAT I'M STARTING TO HATE ALL YOU PEOPLE! BUT NO, I STILL LOOOVE MY LIFE BUT I NEED TO IMPROVE. ABOUT ABIGAIL AND OTHER GIRLS I'VE MET, OH BOY, I MISSED THOSE FUCKIN OLD OPPORTUNITIES IN STARTING A RELATIONSHIP BUT NOOOOOO THERE'S ALWAYS ME TO HOLD ME BACK! WHY DO I SUCK?!!! BUT NO, I KNOW IN THE FUTURE I'LL BE THE BEST PERSON OF ALL TIME.
ABOUT THE WORLD NOW, I WANNA INFLICT PAIN TO PEOPLE!!! PEOPLE NEVER FUCKING LEARN!!! MEN AND WOMEN SHOULD REALIZE THAT I'M THE MESSIAH, THE SAVIOR THE ULTIMATE LIBERATOR!!!! BUT NO, I'M NOT CM PUNK OR SOME KIND OF ANTI-CHRIST. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH
The point is that I lack direction in life right now.
So, watcha think of my story?