...and I shouldn't fucking be here.
^ Me, when I realised.
I could be eating some mother fucking...
I could just leave it there to be honest but, it's in no way out of my system.
Having worked my last day prior to the christmas break on 21st December 2012 I was looking forward to an extended break into the new year.
I had a great christmas, it was nice to spend it with my girlfriend and her family. She led me to believe that it would be chaos and very stressful. It wasn't it was full of kids, fun and booze.
Making plans for new year, we decided that we'd stay local, as I had to be back in work on the 2nd Jan, and we didn't really have that much money to blow.
We went to a local club via a couple of house parties and partied HARD, seeing as mant different friends as possible.
Then at 5am, we had to opportunity to get out to a party, where a number of friends had gathered to party till the early hours.
Now the sensible side me knew I couldn't do it, no sleep? and how would I get home that day (as I thought I had work the next).
We decided to call it a night and go home. Was a good idea cause my girlfriend was chundering at every turn. But thats not the point...
SO, this morning. The usual struggle and turmoil of getting up when it's still dark outside followed by the realisation that I didn't even have any coffee at home to help me through.
Now, showered and dressed, I realise I'm late. So I hurry out the door, it's drizzling and I have forgot my umbrella. Little bit annopyed - I'll get over it.
Then I get to work, say happy new year to the receptionist and custodian only to be greeted with a grunt and a nod.
I sit at my desk and within ten mins my boss saunters over and quietly informs me (as i'm mid yawn) that I had previously been granted annual leave for today and shouldn't be here...
So, I was all like...
My office co-workers were all like...
So a compromise was made. I have taken a half day, so the good news (I guess) is that I'm finishing in just a couple of hours.
I SHOULDN'T BE IN WORK TODAY - I COULD STILL BE IN BED.
I will leave you with this and make you feel just a small proportion of how frustrated this has made me.
I don't care, you people can ridicule me all you want, I feel stoopid anyway.
"Durrrrrrr, well done, dummy, durrr!"