Approaching original violence
Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: Ontario, Canada
Already Dead But Can't Get Out Of The Line Of Fire
I'm royally pissed off and need to vent and I find writing helps and realistically I don't do it enough so here it goes.
As some of you may or may not know, I have rheumatoid arthritis and I have since I was 14. What that means basically is all my joints swell all day, everyday. I haven't had a pain free day in a little over 10 years. So because of this I'm on disability. I live with my fiance and she works. Or she did. She just got fired, yet again, from another job putting us in financial ruins for the third time in less than a year. That's right, three jobs lost in less than a year. Fired from each one as well due to her attitude. She realistically is bi-polar, yet refuses to go get help for it. And if she isn't bi-polar than she has some sort of chemical imbalance, but we don't know because she refuses to go.
So because of this as I said before, she has lost three jobs this year. I get a set amount on my check every month and when she is working they would subtract off my base amount to the tune of 50 cents on the dollar. But due to her not working for a long stretch she went on EI and they would give her a check every two weeks which was a little below what she would normally be making had she been working, which is fine. She recently got another job but was still collecting EI (you're allowed to do that) but would only receive it every two weeks if she worked less than a set amount of hours. So some weeks she would get paid from EI, other times she wouldn't. So needless to say there is a clusterfuck of paperwork I have to hand in every month and it can get confusing. But the kicker is they take EI dollar for dollar, instead of 50 cents on the dollar like with normal working wages. So to put it in perspective, I have a base pay and they take off of it half of what she makes at work and THEN takes literally dollar for dollar what EI gives her, fucking us from two different angles. Fine, I say, she can just go off EI and the hole in the boat will be plugged. Wrong. Because EI is giving us money, we can't legally get off of it because I am on disability and that subsidizes the amount of money they have to give to us. So, basically they are saying "You can't get off of it because now we don't have to pay you that money because they are, but we'll take it from you at the end of the month dollar for dollar anyway". So they won't let me get off of it, thus fucking me even further.
So I'm hemorrhaging money right now and because it means disability gets to give me less money, I can't get off of it until late Sept. when it ends. This baffles me. I'm BARELY getting by right now, on the skin of my teeth and this will continue until minimum the end of Sept. But it gets better, due to the mail strike here all the mail is weeks and weeks behind. So I don't get the statements from EI proving how much or how little they gave her. And when this happens disability just goes with how much she used to get, even though she isn't making that much anymore. So they take that money dollar for dollar from me due to the mail not coming in, even though we didn't make that much, thus rendering us even poorer because some cunts decided to strike because they realized their format of job is fucked in 5 years.
Add onto that I have a cracked tailbone (DON'T EVER GET A TAILBONE INJURY, EVER. IT NEVER FUCKING HEALS), a MASSIVE ulcer that bleeds a ton that makes me very sick and that's not including all my joints being swollen from arthritis. And that's just the shit I have to deal with as soon as my feet touch the floor everyday, that doesn't include dealing with all of our finances, trying to come up with a way to get by and then putting up with my nutty fiance who refuses to get help, blames everything on me and loves telling me how much of a piece of shit I am. And people wonder why I'm a fucking asshole. I'm surprised I haven't killed someone yet and I'm even more surprised that I don't drink.
So, yeah. I'm sure not a lot of you care and I'm sure that's far too long for a lot of you to hold your interest and that's fine. I also understand and expect that I posted this on here so I'm expecting any and all criticism about it, feel free. I just needed to get it off my chest and it's already made me feel a little better, rant over.
Remember, stay black because that's the most important thing.
Last edited by Walls Of The Jungle; 07-14-2011 at 09:31 AM.