While your solution makes sense on paper it won't work. She lost her job last year as well and there was a 6 month period where I had to sell tons of shit to get by. If I get rid of the internet, I would be sitting in a house in silence 97% of the day because I have had the digital cable cut for over a year once I realized I watched all my tv online and was wasting $70 a month on it. And my fiance needs the internet for her family. And fuck, if I got rid of the internet you have no goddamn idea the shit tsunami that would cause with her and how long that would last. And it's real easy to say "Dont bitch because you are online right now" but that doesn't change shit and it isn't worth the massive nuclear war I would enter into with my fiance for fucking $35 a month. Oh, and thanks for telling me that in an alternate time I wouldn't have survived. I'm not made out of glass, nor am I in a wheel chair, thanks.
I'm tackling this last line first because I think you misunderstood it and I apologize for that. What I meant was in terms of finance, you wouldn't even be given monetary benefits in a society our world could've took or hell, that actually happens
in other places in the world. I was trying to further my point that there's plenty of people in the world who aren't offered any help whatsoever for whatever conditions or disabilities they may have.
While I can sympathise (and I'm well aware you're probably not expecting sympathy from anyone) with you going through a tight cash period, or a hard emotional time/whatever. I can't sympathise you complaining when there are options there, as hard as taking them may be. I used to live with an alcoholic, and while she wasn't technically
bi-polar I can certainly relate to the mood swings 100%. The fact is your problems have solutions, or atleast the means to minimize the financial damage you're having trouble with.
Maybe it's because I've worked with charities, I just find it hard to hold my tongue when outside of your situation with your fiancÚ and whatever physical condition you have, you have it fucking good compared to millions on this planet.
For what it's worth I hope you get out of your bad spot soon because they do hit the best of us.