You are a dumb fuck. I would alienate you as well after reading through that long block of text. You seem like an unstable, schizophrenic stalker.
That's your impression of me that's fine I don't give a fuck really.
My only problem is that I'm a pretty emotional guy, it's been that way ever since I can remember, since I was a little kid. I understand this isn't the best place to ask for advice, but I was just home with some free time bored and decided to write about this situation.
In reality I don't give a fuck about people like you who enjoy talking shit. I'm not taking this situation as serious as some of you may think, just trying to get past this ho once and for all. Hooking up with other women takes my mind away only temporarily, but once they get off the dick I'm back thinking about that particular bitch. Thanks for nothing, it's not like I wrote this with something to lose.
I have the ability to just cut people out of my life and realize it's over and move on but I wasn't always like that. When I broke up with my former fiance I was sad as shit for about a week and then I completely got over it and she and I were together for almost 2 years. Same with my other gfs, when we broke up I just had the mentality that they are gone and that's that, no use being upset about it. But for that week after I ended things with my former fiance I was a wreck so I guess I learned from that and got better at letting people go as time went on.
Then there are people like my fiance's friend who broke up with her bf over a year ago and still isn't over it.
Nothing wrong with getting married at 18. The whole "You're missing out" thing doesn't apply to everyone. I've always been a relationship type of guy, never wanted one night stands. Did it once and while it was good, I'm far too paranoid about getting a STD or getting the girl pregnant. And thank christ I didn't get that chick pregnant, I saw her about a year ago and she has a kid. She said she was mad because the guy wanted her to get an abortion and she wouldn't. Dodged a bullet there.
You obviously are taking the situation seriously. Seems like you lost yourself in the relationship because half the shit you said in your original post outrages me. Your 18, dude. Get settled, figure out who you are, what you're striving towards in life, and get a career. Everything else should fall into place accordingly. Search the depths of your body and search hard.