I was (and still am) like you, On April 6th this year, my mum died aswell. She was 52, she had been ill since the age of 11, told she wouldnt walk, but she did. I like to think of her proving all those doctors wrong, I've not even told my friends this stuff, they know she died, but im opening up on a wrestling forum, perhaps its cus i dont really know you people. Im starting to get a teary eyed. So let me get to the point i wanted to make.
When I was talking to my ex-girlfriends mum (shes pretty religious) she just kept on saying things like, "God labels somethings, Will explain later". To me thats not good enough. I see know reason why a girl of 11 will become so ill for no reason and basically live a life of pain and suffer. Its not like she was the only one who suffered either, our whole family suffered, watching her suffer made me and other family members feel some of the pain aswell.I find it hard to believe in THE God people talk about when these type of things happen, but I believe the mind is too powerful just to stop and not do anything after the body dies.