I tend to be to charming to the point I come across as a flirt so I feel the need to constantly reassure my girl I love her.
I'm not the best father in the world but I am working on it.
Im so fucking paranoid and over protective due to the past.
Im a recovering drug abuser and alcoholic due to past. Been sober of weed, morphine and harder rec drugs like coke an ecstasy for 5 years. Still struggle with alcohol.
I over-think everything. Like, genuinely everything. I'm seriously over-thinking right now whether that's an exaggeration or not and whether I should edit this post. I even over-think that. Seriously.....I over-think everything.
Last year at Uni I went to a nightclub very drunk. I don't smoke although when I'm drunk I sometimes have one as it tends to make you feel a lot more drunk then you are. This particular night out a guy sees me struggling to find my lighter and offers his in return for borrowing my phone. I give this random stranger my phone, sit down and light up. Safe to say I've never seen that phone since (lost the lighter too a few days later!)
Moral of this story, when I am drunk I say yes to everything. I can't help it. I can only think of two times when I've said no but thats because I had a girlfriend at the time.
I'm an absolute perfectionist...everything has to be just right or I get flustered. Plus, I am always absolutely very hard on myself. I'm my own worst critic. My wife tells me that sometimes I just need to chill out and not expect everything to be perfect at that moment. Easier said than done, though.
- I'm very shy, not that much on internet of course, but lots in rl
- I never laught, I smile a lot but I think I don't know how to laugh, it can appear like a weird trait
- when i get verbally attacked I become frustrated and tearful (and sadly, silent) instead of fighting back. I don't think I'm weak but i always try to run from fights (fear of conflict). I also expect other people to step up in my defence, I HATE this part of me so much.